Sabbati-blog Day 14: Ready or Not… Write!

For the last two weeks I have enjoyed the opportunity to dive into the Bible, mostly in Matthew, to see the inner workings of disicpleship.  How do we follow Jesus?  How did Jesus make disciples?  What are the obsticles to discipleship?  The things I uncover seem so new at times, and yet they are ancient, even to the very beginning of existence.  I feel like the scribe Jesus speaks of in Matthew 13:52.

“Therefore every scribe who has been trained for the kingdom of heaven is like a master of a house, who brings out of his treasure what is new and what is old.”

These is something strangely rejuvinating about uncovering such treasure.  I could spend my entire sabbatical studying, revealing, discovering and not write a word.  But I have been commissioned to write a discipleship curriculum.  This scribe trained for the kingdom of heaven needs to bring out the new/old treasures for others to experience.  Therefore, I must write.

I gave myself two weeks for my background study.  Today is day 14.  Time has run out.  Ready or not… write!  However, I find myself with a strange feeling on the precipice of authorship.  I’m not ready.  I need to study more.  I need to consult more commentaries.  I need to talk to more experts.  Then I’ll be ready.

No I don’t.

Jesus’ disciples dropped their nets and a miraculous catch of fish to follow Jesus.  They could have come up with a lot of excuses to wait.  The rich young man was very ready to follow laws that made him feel self-justified, but when Jesus asked him to give away his treasure, he walked away from the real treasure.  This isn’t ultimately my treasure.  It’s God’s, and I’m only a steward of it.  The treasure won’t multiply if I bury it in the gaping hole of my insecurities.  Yes, it’s impossible for me.  But nothing is impossible with God.

God has set aside this time for me to gather his truth for disciples to be made for him.  So I will write.  Ready or not.